it'e been a while

it's been a while since i have done many things

-written in the blog
-felt inspired like nothing else
-talk to erin on the phone
-been stressed and happy
-worked twice a week

i think the main reason i have not written in here lately is because of the few exciting and not so exciting things happening in my life. so around earlier february i took a little trip-aroo to spokane. with two of my best friends ever, chelsea and melissa. we explored some really lame malls, but besides that, there was not a few five minutes that went by with them where i didn't laugh, or use the voice. (those who know me too well will know what the voice is) we went to a little thing called all nw. okay, maybe it's not all that little, but it was still rather amazing. allow me to explain, basically it an audition group pulling auditions from all across the northwest to create a band (in my case). they also had choirs there too. i was so happy, that my two friends came with me.the chances that all of us going together were kinda unlikely because i really didn't expect to make such a group to be quite honest. my director, gary green, has done many many numerous honor groups. including many all-state groups as well. he was sooo inspirational. it's going to be very hard to explain how genius this man was. he was very intense, but he knew music like the back of his hand. i mean this was a guy who was raised in a normal schooling and came to the top of everything. and those are the people i admire most. some quotes he said, made the band all teary.
'beautiful music can only come in direct contact with silence'- green
'use this [your head], and play from here [your heart]'- green
'no note is ever the same'- green
'music is the anticipation of what's to come ... and so is life.' freen
when he said these i was like.....BAM! smack in the musical face.
probably one of my favorite parts, (and experiences...ever) was playing lux aruqume by eric whitacre, one of my all-time favorite composers. i mean all time. this guy is the owner of beautiful music. and he's still young. it was such a beautiful moment playing that piece. even though it required no percussion, it was still my favorite piece. anyone who knows what all nw is, its a group that sounds so good that its unbearable. i cried three times in spokane when we listening to whitacre's piece. most of the time it was just glazy eyes, but still! good stuff. i could go on for a long time of some stuff i learned and people i got to see/meet (like z. randall stroppe, andrew boysen jr., garwood whaely) but it would take too much time. i would add some sweet sweet photos but blogger is being really stupid at the moment.

erin called me the other day and it made my day! we were just talking and me and her realized that she would be down in idaho during my play! how exciting! i more excited that she will be able to see it than i am about the play itself. i like the people, and the atmosphere of the play. we just are not getting the ball rolling to quickly. but i think it will come together. you have to look at it this way.

-half the cast has not been on a stage before
-we switched directors during the play
-we currently ONLY have two rehearsals a week.

given those three circumstances, i don't blame many people for how time-crunched we are for this show. but it is getting me worried. i'm partially at fault however too. i still think i have yet to break really into my character and i still need to finally roll of book. it's a slow start. hopefully the play comes along. the music is also driving the show. most shows, the dialogue starts and then heats up making the character break into song. this show however starts with songs and creates the curve of the story in between those. the play is entitled "dream". a musical adaption of a mid-summers night dream. puck, my character is a little creepy to honest. i have a lot of fun making people miserable (on-stage) but it's a very exhausting character. much energy is put into playing that little guy. i am stressed with the show and my ap class. haha, one of them is ap but no-one knows it is. haha. so maybe i should say my ap class. with no 'es'. ha.

so i usually work on tuesday(after school) and saturday (all day) every week at thorne printing. my job. but for the past few months they would call me during school and tell me i didnt have to come in. so i was like ok cool. but it happened over and over. i was starting to get worried. so i got called in for a meeting with my manager. she explained that the shop would be closing on saturdays (when i worked) and that they would just call me when they need me. which is like...never, right? maybe i should take this as a sign to find a new job or a cheap way of trying to lay me off? heck, i know i'm in high school and jobs don't matter too much since i'm not supporting a family or anything, but if you are going to give me the axe, might as well give it to me fast instead of a nice, slow one. gah, i don't even like the people i work with. i do it for the money so i can go serve a mish already. but then again, who does it for the co-workers, right?

and my last subject, i promise: sadies!
i got asked to sadies,,, i was so worried no one would ask me!!! haha, totally kidding. but i do know people who are like that and it annoys me a tiny bit. but i did get asked my best friend melissa. me and her have a fascination with making fun of pokemon. it's pretty entertaining. so she made me a dvd and read-a-long book of a pokemon tribute to me. she took the pokemon theme song and replaced the words askingme to sadies pretty much. i coud not stop smiling/laughing when i read the book. it was ultra-cheese! but ultra-cute and hilarious as well. probably the best way i have seen anyone ask/answer ever! hilarious stuff i tell you. :)

anyways, i stayed up waaay later than i had expected i thought i was tired until i drank water and now i am somewhat awake. luckily church is at two! i'm starting to use the keyboard as a pillow so i should probably head out. thanks for reading.

see ya later crocidile
in a while alligator
(said in the voice)...
HA! oh man that's funny

thoughts that came to mind

on days like these when i have no homework, i usually like to be lazy. but i'm trying to break that habit, because sooner or later i really have to start using my time more wisely. the play is coming along. i'm almost worried as to how fast we will get the play together and how soon we can actually pull it off, but no fear, i have faith! i think it's kind of funny how all my peers develop their character more and more. it's very interesting, kind of funny as well. and as much as i hated the music at the start, i very much enjoy now. funny how things like that happen. but it happens every time. so....
valentines day is next week! how exciting, and it's not on a school day, which i'm sure some girls appreciate very much. my pal evann was telling me how much she loathed the girls who pranced the halls with flowers on valentines. high school can get pretty ridiculous with valentines. for example: the BESO club sells valentine "grams" on valentines day. kinda funny, how insincere and how "thoughtful" cough not really. it makes me laugh, and i also wonders if they put mexican chocolate in those things. mexican chocolate is actually good, and i wish i could explain in words, but you really just have to try it for yourself. once upon a time i went to maverick and got mexican hot chocolate, it was beautiful. maverick actually has some good food. i know that sounds kinda gross, but really. let me start with probably my favorite (and my family would agree): biscuits and gravy. holy freak, this stuff is stupendous. it's probably my third favorite thing in the world. i don't know whats second or first, but please go try some. and since i work right next to a maverick i get to test-taste some of what they make. they make these mean bread things, with cheese pepperoni and loaded with jalepenos. my saliva is swirling just thinking about it. that's also heavenly. those are probably my only two things that im really fond of there. the rest is jerky, alcohol, nasty candies, and really old donuts. gross.

duty to god, page thirteen, requierment nine.

this requirement asks me to sum my life up in five hundred words. i'm not quite sure how to go about this, how hard it will be, or what to write really, but i'll try my best.

i never thought that my life has been all that interesting, however there are some things that i feel worth mentioning. a lot of work that went into my life was being diagnosed with neuroblastoma, a cancer related to the nervous system. very very many priesthood blessings went into those two years of my life. fortunately, i don’t even remember all that treatment. for my parents i believe it was a real testimony and good trial for us both. i think when i was young that i never liked math, and never learned to like it since. so anything involving math, science, chemistry, and even technology, i wish i was good at. too bad i was lacking in that area. but i definitely get more satisfaction out of other things. In elementary school, my mother said i was always a problem with the teachers. i even remember mrs.mckellip telling me to call my mom and tell her i did something wrong. don’t remember exactly what it was, but i remember that fear i had going to call her. when i had a horrible score on a mad-minute i also threw it away, in hope that the teacher would just forget about it or something. wow. that basically sums up my childhood, elementary years, my personality at least. i always thought in middle school that it was cool to be like everyone else, or dress like everyone else. and i even went for that idea, hardcore too. i was probably even popular for a bit too, or, “popular”. funny how some people still have that mind set in high school. how frustrating. haha. now, i’m senior in high school, and i really can’t wait till i can get out and start growing up and meeting new people. i have four siblings, two older than me and two younger. i love where i placed in the family. i always wish i had a little brother, but sometimes i don’t. my main interest in life right now, are people and music. both of these have played a big role in my life so far. i think it’s very interesting to see why people do things and why they choose to live the way they do. that’s what my father does for a living. i always thought it was weird to do what my father did, but i keep finding out how much more i am like my dad than i thought. i think he probably knows me better than i know myself, which can be scary thought, but even more, comforting. some of my future plans include serving an lds mission. which i am oh so excited about. even when i get called to nebraska. come back, and start college right away to earn a degree in whatever i am going to do. i still don’t have a clue exactly what i want to spend the rest of my life doing. somewhere in there i’ll get married too. i think i have been very fortunate to grow up and accomplish what i have so far. my life hasn’t been too interesting, and i probably didn’t sum it up as well as i could, but i’m excited to make it more interesting as i go.

bam! 542 words, what an over-achiever. ok, not really, but thanks for reading. and you should do it too, even if it's for a duty to god requirement or not.